I always wanted to share and never knew where to share. Make sense? I always wanted people to know about my son, because he isn't just my son, he's my miracle. I can ramble and talk all day about him. I know that seems a bit boastful but being a mom is just that, you can talk and talk, and never get bored, about your kids. They mean everything to you and you want everyone to know it. Now, sometimes it can get on people's nerves, that's fine, you usually don't want to hear about their kids either. Just kidding. Being a mom isn't the easiest job to have, so when you are a mom you want people to know sometimes, hey this isn't easy but I am do a damn good job at it. So, you tend to brag on your kids and sometimes it is a sneaky way to brag on your mom skills. We do the best we can as long as we can and we like sometimes knowing it pays off. I am a different kind of momma in a way. I use to feel so alone but then I realized I am not the only one who deals and struggles with things in the way I do. I am in no way implying that regular moms don't struggle. I think the miss understanding about special needs momma's vs. regular momma's is that sometimes one group or the other get to feeling like somebody thinks they do a better job, simply due to circumstance. I will explain a bit, I think somebody should.
Regular mommas, do a great job, they have struggles. Some are single mommas and have to do it mostly alone or fully alone. They teach their kids to be good people despite the person who is supposed to be around isn't. They give their kids all the live that two people should be giving but from one heart. Any momma, despite the type has to take care of kids; they have their lives and well being in their hands, from doctors, to school, activities, friends and meals. Not to forget the entire emotional and mental struggle that goes on, from toddler tantrums, to terrible teens. Then, there is that loss of control when they hit (and most parents realize before then) adult hood. It is a lot to weigh on a momma (or dad in some cases). I often look at some parents with a child so out of control they can't tolerate it anymore. Teen years are not the easiest I have noticed. Mine is still small, sort of, sometimes he attitude reminds me of a teenager. I know I am in trouble when hormones take over.
This intro is trying to help clarify that while I know that being a parent in general is one of the hardest jobs, I do want to share my side, about being a Parent to a special needs child. It isn't easy because it has that tricky word in it, Parent. There are things that some could do with ease, but they aren't parents so it is a lot harder with an emotional connection to someone. I am hoping that over the course of time, when I get my writing up and going, that people can understand why sometimes being a different type of momma can be a little harder then you realized. Sometimes momma's in general and mostly special momma's need to be able to share and tell how things are for us, and how hard they are on us without someone telling us that they have it just as hard. We would love to share and tell why sometimes it just is too much just about, but we feel like we should not complain. I am not complaining, I am sharing, like most mommas should. There are other people feeling just like you and if you just open up and tell your story, it might actually help someone else.
I would like to add I thank you for your time as well as to say my next Blog will begin more about my life as a momma and how it started. Sort of, I am not going into great detail if you get me. This start, was just a heads up that there is more to come, and also a somewhat explanation and in hopes that others could understand that I welcome them all to read, share and hopefully gain some understanding. At the same time, it is no way meant to segregate me from any group of momma’s but possibly connect some groups so they all can understand one another. Like I said before, it’s not easy being a momma, but when you add extra hurdles, it becomes even harder. Sometimes, it feels almost impossible. However, we pick up and keep pushing forward because we know if we don’t then who will. And we have a lot to push for, the most important reasons in the world to succeed.
I am hoping this turns out, it is, in away my first attempt at this type of sharing. I have done others but the topic weren’t as personal or as close to my hearts.
Our children are watching us live and what we are, shouts louder than anything we can say.
